Din know toilet training can caused UTI

Saturday Charlotte was complaining that her pee pee is ichy and backside is painful... I thought she is making a fuss as there is no redness or anything... Sunday noon she cry out loud and she needs to go and pee. Something is not right, she will pee little bit and cry out loud... and she cannot empty her bladder...

As Sunday, the clinic is closed, so I can only search online for home remedy... Made her drink loads of water and she keep asking to go toilet and cry each time she pee and cannot finish peeing... can sense that she is traumatized..

I asked her to put on the diaper and pee on the diaper instead... distract her with books and whenever she feel like peeing, I ask her to pee on the diaper... I guess this helps her to empty her bladder.... After a while she is OK and she says its not painful already.

I am not sure how serious her UTI is... I checked online and realize it might be caused by her toilet training... She has been off diaper since Jan this year (for day time... when she goes to school and when she is at home) Other than that, when we go out during weekends and sleeping at night she is on diaper... Slowly this month I tried to let her off diaper during weekends when we are outside. I realized she can dun pee for like 3 to 4 hours!... Which is not normal right? She really hold her pee very long... Sometimes till the extend of leaking.

Last week, one of the night her daddy forget to put her on diaper for bed while I was out. The next morning I realize she is not on diaper and she did not wet herself. So I thought she is ready for off diaper at bedtime. Friday and Saturday I encourage her to be off diaper and she did not wet herself. Then Sunday this problem come... So Sunday night I put her back on diaper and she can pee a lot on the diaper. But when she is off diaper, the pee next morning is not a lot.

I was reading online about toddler having UTI from toilet training. How huh... should I continue to train her for night time off diaper or hold back the training? I gave her barley water today and ask the teacher to let her drink loads of water. Will monitor and see if she need to see a doc. She did not have any fever and since Sunday evening till this morning she can pee 1 shot and no complain of pain.

Experience Yangon, Myammar

I must really blog about Yangon. Though it might have given me a wrong or mixed impression as this is a business trip. During business trip u normally get to see the good things of a place because everything is pre-organized. Haha... 

But I must really comment that it is through a business trip that u can really seed the business environment which is of direct impact to the economic growth of a country.

Yangon is much more developed and vibrant than expected. I was still thinking that I m going to a hardship place on the flight there. Hahahha

Telecommunication is really not given. Even with the local calling card u will not be able to send sms internationally... It's restricted to only local sms. For oversea call, u need to get additional top up. The hotel we stay has wifi but not very stable. On the other hand just take note of what u send, from my understanding, every communication is still being tracked. 

Their city is clean, and perhaps due to decades of closure, both city and people are pure and less "polluted". The city does not have motorcycles. Hahahh! When checking with the driver who send us around, many years ago some jokers ride on the bike to throw some fire crackers very near to the military cars... Thus motorcycle was banned in Yangon till now.

With their opening up, the business community in Yangon is  receiving delegations after delegations! There is relay some level of fatigue. In additional, most of these delegations are still in information sourcing stage. 

However one thing I do observed and impressed is their "hunger" for more! Some big tycoons whom we met has like all the different kind of business in the place but yet still very eager to do more! 

One thing to note is they also might necessary mean what they say. Maybe still a lot of tracking from the govt... People are generally positive in their response. Because ppl are always smiling and agreeing, u cannot really tell if they really understand.

In term of business, Yangon is really a land full of opportunities and uncertainty!

In term of people, I must say they are quite hardworking... And pure... Perhaps I met the nicer ones. Hahahaha. The driver we had, learn English on his own and through engaging a private tutor. And given the "harsh" living condition where there is no freedom of speech, restriction of movement, I must say the people has never give up on themselves! Internet installation would cost them usd$700! Yet a driver is still working hard to earn it so as to give his 12 years old daughter an exposure! He commented that Singapore kids are much blessed... I reply that they have it in exchange for simple happy carefree childhood... U no longer see kids playing marble, skipping, playground in the evening... It's all replaced with tuition and extra clases.

The visit to shwedagon pagoda has given me a new perspective of how "contented" their people are... The top of the pagoda is full of gems, diamonds and ruby. It's such a contrast to the condition of living on the ground! Yet ppl never complain. Many people were praying, mediating on the ground. The place is very peaceful and serene.

I actually felt much lighter and positive after this trip... One thing I learn... Singapore is such a pampering place that we have long forgotten the days where telecommunication is so inaccessible,  and Singapore is such a competitive place we have long forgotten the simplicity of life that make things beautiful. 

Life in motion? Or life in Passion?

Life in motion? Or life in Passion? I heard the statement on the radio in the cab while only way to the airport on a business trip to Yangon.

In these few weeks,  I have repeatedly ask myself what I m good in doing and what I enjoy doing... I guess I have been living life in motion for the longest time... But who dun live life in motion... We do what our parents asked us to do, what our bosses ask us to do... Even when our kids can control what we have to do... Even what we read online, papers can control us in our thinking...

Comparing now to back then... Same situation... Standing at the cross road... To move I or stay put.... This time round... It's either I m more mature in managing the situation or the situation is on a higher level of challenges...

Being 30s is not the age where u can still cry father cry mother when u face a problem. Stuck in a sandwiched class definitely required a more mature attitude in resolving or understanding the problem.

And most importantly is 30s a age where u can still take challenges and gamble your future??? I m at this situation whereby I dun think I m scaring myself... I do admit a lot of time I am in a panic mode and might blow up a situation more on the negative side... And usually the problem go away before I really need to solve it.

But the fact that this issue has been in my mind for weeks and even affection my emotion... I dun think it is something that will go away... Until I come to a conclusion on how I should deal with it.

Although I always say work and career is not everything...I slowly realize that only the younger ppl have the privilege to say so... When bread and butter is concern esp when u have progress to certain standard level of living.... How many can be so 潇洒自如....

I dun think I have 入错行, I have never regret my move into any of my job... But I start to feel that I might have been too "playful" with my selection without taking into consideration of any exit strategy...

Now that this one is 混不下去, I start to panic when I cannot find alternative... In additional, all my previous encounter were 自己不想混下去, this time round is 别人不让你混下去... The feeling is very different...

So I try to analyze the problem... As if like writing a paper... Background, external factors, internal standing, assessment and conclusion.

Background: The organization is on a killing spree... On the pretext of improving competitiveness. But guideline on survival, unclear. Meaning u can do what u think can help your survival rate but it's not 100%.

External factors: Bosses themselves are also under the mercy of the new system.. They r trying hard to survive as well... When it comes to this kind of situation... One better wake up and stop cpcb (kao pei kao bu) ... Like the theory of the hunter looking at a flock of bird and decide which one to shoot... The one who get the attention most get shot!

But that does not mean if u keep quiet u will be safe.... Cos u will be deemed useless and not contributing... Like a nest of bee... U just do ur work and not "magnifying" your effort, when times come for reporting... U will be the easy target to build the base (垫底）cos without the base the high profile one cannot go up... There is a need for high, medium, low... If everyone is the same and get the same reward, there will not be competition and thus no competitiveness.

Internal standing: I would want to look elsewhere, but the market is bad... I cannot be 任性 to just show my displeasure of the system because end of the day I will be at the losing end. I cannot go with the flow because it's not by covering ur conscious u can do it and be safe... What u are doing which u think it's safe might just backfire and kill u. And ultimately... Do u still want to be in this game?

Assessment: I highly think its not possible to land into a similar job scope with similar pay... Even if willing to take a pay cut, the market is too competitive... It's difficult to brunch into new area... 30s is not the age where ppl are willing to let u gamble the role they are looking for... Plus I m really the "jack" and not the master.

Continue to stay put and live life in fear for all I know my reputation get really smelly for doing the right thing wrong or the wrong thing right... The line is too thin...

Conclusion : I just need to figure out my mindset on how to progress next... And most importantly I m lack of one thing... The "right opportunity"!

It has been a mental stressing weeks where I have to challenge myself in what I am thinking... An internal battle.... I have come to term that the strongest mindset is where u know u can fall back to a basic... To where u start from... But it's not easy facing it...

Being at a level where not above others yet but on a average standing, to go back to basic and be able to take others opinion and view on u is definitely not easy....

I started to explore start up business but operating cost is too high... Childcare business seems good and they even sponsor u for training and of course u have to sign a 2 years bond... Average pay is 2k and it will be for the next 3 years or so.... Then u might not be able to turn it into a business due to high operating cost.....

Home business, work from home model where the Internet has load of information but 90% are unreal... Almost got cheated... Luckily Google and some blog talk about it... Beware of easy money... Nothing is easy and those scam on the Internet should really go and bang the wall... The fact that ppl is looking around for such opportunity is because they are feeling at wits end and yet these online fako still cheat them of their money!

Taxi uncle telling me that driving taxi can give a decent income... Blog shop owner telling me, selling things online is workable but high risk of failing. I have experienced the Internet bubble bursting era and fully aware... And when that happen, many fall back to basic which I m one of them.

There r things I enjoy doing but I know it's hard to make a living... I m also fully aware that I dun have deep pocket to try and error... Most importantly time is not my side... I m no longer young and can blame my failure on age... As I aged I cannot also be a bump and complain about how life is unfair... Wat a shitty situation...

I guess I just lack the courage to make a decision and stay firm by it. Decisiveness does not grow with age.