Forever waiting list

I intend to send Charlotte to the cc to cut down her interaction time with the maid. I din want to send her to expensive one and far one as I have to manage finance and time.. for her age I dun think she will get to learn in the class... its more off "time off" from the maid...

I concluded that the My First Skool at the void deck of my mum place is the best option... although they do not have half day... for the cost, I dun mind paying full day and let her attend for half day session... And due to the proximity, it is convenient for us to send and fetch.

I have put her on waiting list since last year March... I have been checking on and off by calling and checking... last year Sept I called, they say check back in Nov... So Dec I drop by to check they say she is still on the list... Early last week I call, they say she is still on the list.... Last Friday, since we are on leave, we went to the center again...

This time, to my horror... we are actually on a forever waiting list!!!! Because they wont be able to take her even if there is a slot... why???? Because the center does not have any child born in her category now... They break the kids up into 2 category per year, March till Sept, Oct to Feb.... and it happen that now they only have Oct 2008 till Feb 2009 kids in the toddler class... even if they have slot, they wont take in Charlotte who is in the Aug 2009 cos they dun have children in her category...
The principal explain the rationale and I find it hard to accept... she say they will only consider students in the same category so that it is easier to manage. This group of kids will progress to playgroup at the same time and only then she can take in the next batch... but the next batch will be Oct 2009 to Feb 2010 category... she say no way she can take in Charlotte until next year... which she will join the Oct 2009 to Feb 2010 category... which make her the eldest in her class.... until she turn 30 month then she can join the playgroup.

I am not happy by the fact that they did not bother to explain to me right from the start... and we are on this forever waiting list which we are not aware of the system. The principal even suggest to me that I should try to join other My First Skool and get a transfer next year... because they accept siblings followed by transferred cases... the list is the last! OMG lar....

when their term is up... would u change a not?

I m considering the option of changing maid when her term is up... her term will be up in Oct... its a bit early to consider now... but I think I need to prep my time table and plan as well... and weighing out pro and cons.

I have not ask her if she wants to continue but I am having doubt to let her renew... I can slowly see bad habits sticking deep into her behavior... she is known for lazy but I am alright with it as long as she take good care of the child... but as the child grow bigger, I think our priority changes as well... I have been encouraging her to read and play more "intellect" stuff with my girl instead of everyday watch TV. But she is not taking my instruction well... I can live with it as it was not expected her to take care of my girl like a teacher... but main reason for her not doing so is 1 word... LAZY.... she rather watch TV... everyday from 1pm to 3pm she will watch TV when my mum is watching... She can even sing the song from the drama! OMG rite... 

Then she never use those free time to help out to clean my mum place... maybe because we never enforce the action in the 1st place... last time when the child is younger, she dun really have the time... cos her eyes have to be constantly on the child... but now the child can play on her own... a lot of free time since she dun really play with her "intellectually".... I often see her eyes fixed on the TV while my poor girl keep calling her and have to play on her own... Training my girl to be independent huh.... Yes... under her training my girl can "self help" in playing with her toys and stuff animals.

I guess as my girl grow, our priority also change.. now she is good at attending to my girl basic needs and we are familiar with her, my mum is used to having her around... but I m not sure if its a wise choice to renew her contract.. I feel that it is also partly my fault not to ensure rooters... but I really very tired having to repeat and repeat what need to be done on a regular basis. I am thinking new maid might not confirm 100% can fit my requirements... but at least can try to set the thing right... a lot is habitual....

Also I have phobia that new pattern might start after she come back from home leave... now already super lazy... say 1 thing, do 1 thing ....wat if after the home leave she get worse... haiz....

Change can really make a difference

I was still feeling so demoralized yesterday... feeling how unpredictable life is .... unclear of what's next... I just got a good news that my team mate is getting a transfer! and its out of the country! Good for her! Although I am not the 1st to know but the news really come encouraging and the triangle (3 of us) are so happy that our triangle might have our 1st overseas gathering in India!

Maybe its really fated that I am not making this trip now because the gathering is going to happen this year end... Sometimes I can't help but acknowledge that fate or by will everything will just fall into place nicely.

Maybe we really need faith in what we do to keep our hearts and mind open to receive new things, changes that can really make a difference! The moody feeling was wiped off immediately with this good news...

Although this good news does not impact me directly, somehow, I feel the need to hear good stuffs, promising stuff and encouraging stuff for my positive spirit to return.

Pessimistic take effect again

I Dun know why... I m feeling demoralize and UN-Peace at heart lately... Not sure if it's because with all the unhappy and negative stuffs that are happening right from the start of the year...

At the start of the year, it's like really uncertain about continuing what I m doing or a job switch.. But job switch will bring along lots of uncertainty... And also weighing the potential at current place... It's really a tough decision... Plus the maid contract expiring this year = need to take long leave... ???

Just as all these uncertainty in the mind going on... The sudden dismissal of a relative in CNY set me thinking about what we really want in life... Life is so unpredictable... U never know what is installed for u... It also strike me thinking what we bring with us here to this earth and what we are going to leave behind... That's when I feel that children is the best thing u can leave behind for the one living who still needs to face the challenge of live, especially that for only child... If u have your own family, it's still not that bad... else siblings is really your source of support... But of course not all siblings are that close as well..We often see siblings fighting over legacy as well... 2 sides to the coin.

But still... Seriously I m not sure of what the future has installed for our future generation.. With all the natural disaster... Mankind is so helpless... Especially this japan quake... Really scary and it so demoralizing to see how nature can destroy mankind maybe it's a reflection of how we human destroy the mother earth... But still who determine who will have to suffer the consequences? Fate? God? Luck? No reason and unexplainable...

Now that the nuclear plant is going melt down... How many more people are going to suffer the effects... Unknown figure and future...

And our next generation is so vulnerable to mother nature and all the diseases and virus... And we are so helpless in protecting them against all these... Sometimes I hate to think about it but I often ask myself, although it's natural for us to produce the next generation, the kind of joy and love that comes along with a new life... But would it be the case of if u really love the next generation, u should not even bring them to this world that is full of uncertainty? Something debatable... I m not being negative but I seriously feel that every parents would like to bring joy and happiness to our next generation like what they bring to us.. But is it something within our control...? The answer is clearly no...

The unfinish blog entry....

I just login to multiply and saw on my blog entry... a "draft" blog entry done on 18 Jan 2011... titled "Life Changing Experience"... the blog entry as follows....

I ever seen a phrase somewhere " You want to be Happy? Make some Changes".... I am at this stage where I really have to force myself to make the change happen...
All along I always feel that life should not evolve around work, office.... but I realize that negative feeling, unhappiness at work could affect your personal and social life... I think sometimes it does take some luck to land yourself in a good environment... but it also take one courage to walk out of the lousy environment.
Having change a few working environments, I dread the feeling to "change".... but as much as I hope that things maintain where how it is... I guess there is a limit and threshold to how much I can tolerate.
I am hoping for change to happen ......
 
Its an incomplete blog entry ... its frustrating but yet I dun know how to go about getting that "changing experience" I wanted... Lately I keep saying "if you really want to do it, you will find the way, BUT if you dun wish to do it, You will keep finding excuses"... This line is so right!.... I think I am still in the finish excuses stage...

I realized that I also wrote less stuff here... guess its the laziness and the quickness of facebook to share photos and stuff... But FB is a damn gossipy place... I also starting to less incline in sharing stuff there... esp some thoughts that lead people going haywire...
As this blog titled.... I think the expectation of "life changing experience" is still unfinished... next time... then.... when I get out from the "excuse" stage... for now I just want to complete this blog and post... hahahhah.... something more achievable...