Kinda silly at times

I was reading through some of my past blog entries and came across this entry which I wrote on bb, house, finance, thoughts and plan

Looking back then, I realised that sometimes we just tend to place too much importance in certain issue or thing... perhaps its when its not here and right here at this moment, U dun really feel the importance and you may think that it has lesser priority.

Back then I was worried about "time frame", with the house coming and family planning... to cross over cow year a not and stuff... Hahah... kinda silly of me back then... hahahha... now then I realized and feel that things will just get into place when times come....

We din really planned as in "Planned" when to have a child... the thought of a calf bb was always there but we did not really actively pursue over this issue... when friends among us know that we wanted a calf baby... questions are always raise as in "Any news" ??? Hahhaha... My usually reply is "no lei"...hahhaha.... Certain things just dun come as you wanted at times....

Just as we are happily idling and busy attending weddings of 2008... a little life is growing and ready to say "Hi".... Little NJ officially say "Hi" just a few days into 2009... and shortly.. about 2 weeks later, we received our loan application letter... And as I was busily handling my "morning sickness", we have received the keys to our new home! A place that we longed for and a major plan of 2009 in my resolution....

Everything like happen in a split second... I thought just in time... we can have a place of our own before Little NJ pop... sometimes its called "人算不如天算"...hahhaha... we are forbidden to shift or do anything to the house before Little NJ pop!.... To some people might feel that "HUH!!! so dampening mood!!! its like a wish for a long time (since wedding in 2007 I have been keep talking about Coralinus) hahhahaha...

Frankly speaking I m not sad by this... not a little sad at all! I guess its a shift of priority... I never have thought that I would feel this way...hmmm... though we cant shift place yet, though we cant go to Japan holiday (this mar) as planned... none of this upset me... weird rite... I guess back then when I wrote that blog entry in Aug last yr, if I foresee all these happen, I might have scream and shout all over my blog... hahahha....

However when all these happening now... I m not affected by it at all... :) I am quite surprise by my own thoughts and reaction too! Looking back at some of my blog entry towards the end of last year, its like very very "dark"... I have learn to let go and feel that everything has a life path of its own...
Although I do get emo and upset by my "MS", sobbing and feeling sad for myself...hahha but these does not have any lasting effect... hahhaa... its kinda release of emotion at that moment and next minute I m back to my usual self. 

Looking forward to the days to come... I guess experiences in life does bring one to a new height of understanding of one self and be amazed by how things can change your life and thoughts that you would have least or never expected.

I still do think and planned... but my MS has been giving me a lot of to handle at this moment and I am too busy "conquering" it... hahhaha... I thought I would be reading a lot about motherhood but I haven been do so... hahha... luckily Ws is there to be my walking encyclopedia these while... hahhaha
Since Jan, I have been staying at home all these while and we seldom go out... because of my "suffering"... Nick has been understanding and there always to offer comfort hug. Hahah... the lazy worm has also been reading a bit to understand about gastric reflux and some solution.... 

I do at times feel worried and scared of the "new" challenge... I guess "thinking of it" in a visual form and see it happening in a physical form is really different! Sometimes I do feel "lost" and dun know how to handle... its kinda scary at times too... when U think deeper into it... I believe that I will be having more experiences and thoughts as the days come... after all its part and parcel of life that we have to go through to form life experiences.... without experiences... life would be just as plain as water... but too much drama also very siong... hahhaha... ok I am contradicting...
Stay tuned!